Life is full of ups & downs, one wave strikes after one subsides. My life is like that, with occasional occurrance of powerful tsunamis. I'm glad I've made it through the storm, at least till now.
Everything that's given to u, take it for granted & u may not get to have them anymore in ur life.
Once again, I lost my directions & there is no one I can turn to. It's not their fault, its my fault for being so not expressive. I just dunno how to open my heart to anyone, my heart wants to but my mouth is reluctant to. I put on a brave front but inside I feel lonely, empty & lost. I lose temper, Im clumsy, Im a burden. Im sorry for being a trouble & disappointment to the people around me. I feel that the world has given up on me, like how I've lost everything & given up on myself. Countless times I thought killing myself can solve the problem but I just dont have the courage yet... I don't deserve warmth, love & happiness.
Welcome to my frozen world.
11:59 PM
2012-03-26
&& i think of u every night~