Chapter 688
What a bad start of the day. Lost my temper @ my family, my grandma to be specific. & I didnt manage to make it to meet my aunt @ 8.30am @ Yewtee, she was unhappy abt it. I dunno how I shud feel now but I feel the urge to let it out, I swear my heart is really painful now, so here I am.. @ my blog, my space where I can let it out.
I feel dat my colleagues & frens r more lyk my family. Alhough my family do care abt me, it juz feels different oredi, I juz dunno how to describe it.
I know itz my fault but I didnt want it.. Those words just affected me so much I feel so useless. Whenever sth goes reali wrong I'd imagine my mom in front me, disappointed, & dat FUCKING HURTS. Im not a good son as she expected me to be, or she thinks I shud now be.
Enough 'washing' my face, life goes on. School goes on later.
Bring it on, my heart is made of steel.
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Fortunately Im optimistic enough. Feel much better now. Just be myself. Time to get ready for school. Got some handouts to print before going to school later. All the best! :D
8:41 AM
2010-12-09
&& i think of u every night~