Tmr & nex wk got exams after exams.. Too much 2 cope wid i felt lyk givin' up! Can't stuff any geog stuff into my brain as if itz gonna explode anytym! I'm juz born stupid.. Wad 2 do?
Sudd feel lyk i'm havin' split personality.. Cheerful in front of my frens & depressed when i'm alone(no one seen me liddat b4)..When i hang out wid frens, i will try 2 put away all the stressful things behind & laughey smiley all the way.. When i @ home & looked @ all the fkin' things, all the fkin' maths, sian diao rite away.. I may suffer from depression dis way, hu cares, die faster better.. Sumtyms will juz do some work halfway den got depressed & tore the paper or bang tables, blast music! Best is 2 go run, itz the best way 2 de-stress. Today blog early 2 relieve some stress oso.. I even tot of committin' suicide b4, hopeless.. Dunno how 2 survive these 2 weeks. HMT was lyk so many things thrown 2 us, today still let us do the fkin' useless yue du ce yan, 2 books in 1, 50 qns, it doesn't help us in O-lvl anw, itz juz causin' trouble 2 us. Markin' Days still nid 2 go bak sch 4 hmt thingy, holiday ppl can enjoy we cant. After exam still nid practise trombone, we nid 2 learn finish Funicula b4 the Genting competition, doubt i can make it..
Sumtyms i even wonder y i exist..
7:57 AM
2008-10-03
&& i think of u every night~